同志亦凡人第二季

故事进展到这一步，王子和王子的童话被踩成了碎渣。

漫画成品的发布会上，Justin在拥挤而混乱的人潮中努力寻找Brian。周围一具具光裸性感的身体，旁若无人地接吻缠绵，他的目光有些彷徨，我想他是害怕的。
害怕就像第一次满心欢喜地在GAY BAR里找B，却看见他抱着另一个人温柔细腻那样的尴尬。

Mikey对Brian说，你有没有想过，也许有一天，Justin会爱上别人。
Brian照样无所谓地耸耸肩：他那么年轻，我管不了他。

所以当发现J的外遇的时候，B只是愤怒。
他没有想过挽救。
他如濒危一样地抓紧他，他咬他的嘴唇，他用尽全力地吻他，他用J期待的方式，隔离开肉体关系，用嘴唇膜拜他。
但一切不过只是一个证明。证明两个人的关系已经蒸发。
J的若无其事，J的心不在焉，都宣告爱情已经有心无力地到达了一个临界点。

B在J的身上闻到了别人的味道。
然后他看到了那个别人，在匹兹堡漫天纷飞的雪花里，孤独地拉着小提琴的男人。
B一定觉得很可笑。连外遇都禁不住在Justin面前赞美，Brian是个尤物。
毫无竞争力的对手，Justin你怎么就心甘情愿地把身体交给他。

Mikey谴责Justin，他说，不管你信不信，你是Brian最爱的那一个。
Justin当然不信，Brian说过，我不会用你期待的方式来爱你，过去不会，将来也不会。
在我身边不会有浪漫的野餐和温存的情话，我能给你的，只有暴烈的性。
所以Justin会说，他不爱我，他只是喜欢操我。

在迷离灯光和震耳音响中，Justin找到Brian。
没有意外地，他正靠着柱子跟另一个男人打得火热。
瞧，关系太轻巧，他连伤心都用不着。
转身的时候，那个小提琴手正好趁虚而入。

Justin背对着Brian跟小提琴手热情拥吻。
Brian摘掉眼罩，面无表情地扯过身边的男伴，继续纵情狂欢。

他们忘了说，爱情真的有问题。

Justin的高中毕业酒会，Brian意外光临，跟他共舞一曲，成为全场焦点。那晚多可爱，他们只属于彼此。
可是事情就在那一晚开始变化。

J遇到袭击，B心怀愧疚，这愧疚蔓延成一股淡淡的爱意，也许爱里的关怀，是因为责任。
他们开始像正常的情侣一样逛街，约会，接吻，做爱。那是这个故事最好的光阴，浪子情深，感情锁定给一个人。
如果不问后来，我们就可以心满意足地让这一切落幕了。

究竟是迷恋这种方式的爱，还是借着这种方式的爱来互相伤害，成年人的世界太多揣测和阴霾，sunshine要下雨了。

喜欢Brian是因为他不靠岸。
可是如果对他没有靠岸的期待，又为什么要一直喜欢。
倘若他承认了这份感情，愿意为爱牺牲为爱安营扎寨，那又会怎么样。

如果Justin没有这样年轻，能理解Brian每一个角度的无奈徘徊，百分之一百的包容和忍耐，那又会怎么样。

恨Brian，因为他永远不会告诉你，他在背后为你做了多少事。
他不会告诉你你住院的每一晚他都在走廊上默默等待。
他不会告诉你为了给你找一份好工作他可以牺牲掉多少睡眠。
他不会告诉你失约跟你去滑雪的约定是因为他面临失业的危险。
他不会告诉你他一页一页把漫画打印出来是因为他真的在吃醋。

他什么都不说，你什么都不知道，而你太年轻，他却早就开始承担生活了。

J从外遇的家回来，走进卧室，B只看他一眼，然后掀开被窝，让他躺进去，最后裹住他。
他什么都不说，因为他什么都知道。

两个沉默的人会有将来吗？在建立足够坚韧的默契以前。
不知道。

可是Mikey说得对，B在用自己的方式爱着J。
哪怕J并不期待。

爱情的问题古古怪怪，可是你不说我不说似乎是最厉害的一种。
不信任是因为害怕信任了以后没有结果。
不交心是因为害怕交心了以后不再动情。

放荡是因为畏惧。
流浪是因为孤独。

可是Brian为什么又要在充斥着爱欲和肉体的场合里，看着J的堕落放肆，露出那样迷恋又不忍的表情。

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There's got to be someone in this vast panorama of sweaty bodies. You're just dying to have reject you.--Emmett

It's just the essential elements of a healthy diet. Salt, saturated fat, alcohol.--Brian

There you have it, proof positive that making other people happy can cause nausea, severe cramps, even diarrhea.--Brian

You know how I feel about weddings. They're anticipated, meaningless rituals for heterosexuals.--Mel

Why shouldn't he get a little action? He's outside the required 400-mile limit for extra-marital quickies and anonymous assignations.--Emmett

There's never a right time to admit that you've failed.--Mikey

All protests are bullshit. I mean, a bunch of well-meaning do-gooders marching around carrying signs, chanting "hey, hey, ho, ho, homophobia's got to go". Give me a goddamn fucking break.--Brian


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I want you to hear what I have to say on an empty stomach. So maybe you'll digest it.--Deb

We faggots are a talented bunch. You gotta hand us that. And indestructible too. If AIDS and gay-bashers and crackpot Christians and fucking republicans can't destroy you, nothing can!--Deb

Yeah, it's fine to salivate over some bimbo with boobs the size of flotation devices stuffing a zucchini up her twat.but god forbid you should see some guy with pecs of death squatting on a road teepee. Oh, then you're instantly out on your ass. -- Ted

Look him straight in the eye, and tell him that even though the law permits it,you think what he did is unjustified and unconscionable.--Lindsay

You know, for someone who has enough disorders to merit your own classification in diagnostic and statistical manual, you are one of the most well adjusted and high functioning bastards I know. What's your secret?
A series of hopeless addictions, for one. And never seeing a shrink, for another.--Brian

Some things never change, huh?
-You're wrong, ma. Things change a lot. If you don't change with them, then you get left behind. Look at me, I'm right back in the same place I was before. And everybody else has moved on. I feel lost, ma.--M&Deb

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These characters have principles. When you have principles, you don't need orgasms.
-You have principles when you don't have orgasms. -- Ted &Brian

Why must your happiness always depend on someone else? First Brian, then David, Now back to Brian. If you came back here 'cause you thought Brian was missing you as bad as you were missing him. You fucked up big time. --Deb

What kind of mindless palliative is that for existential angst.--Ted 没什么药可以治疗自暴自弃

Before you turn around, you guys'll be our age. And you'll regret every night you didn't go out and grab a little life. -- Vic

Things go forward instead of backwards, right? And nothing stays the same. So don't trouble yourself. There's no reasons for you to be there with me, and there's no reason for me to expect you to be.

Things have changed, we've moved on and it's okay. No demands, no expectation, no regrets.--Mikey

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I'll be glad when pride's over. So we can all go back to being ashamed. -- Brian

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My dream is to one day know what my dream is.
-Dreaming's for people who like to sleep. I'd rather be awake and fucking. -- Brian

Life sucks, kid. Better you know it now than be disappointed later. -- Miley

I know what happened to you sucks, and I'm not gonna give you some pollyanna shit, about everything happens for a reason, or this was god's gift to make you strong. All you can do at a time like this is just hang on until the scenery changes. --Deb

What's easy besides complaining?

It ain't the end of the world, kid. Unless you want it to be.

Pornography happens to serve an important and profoundly humane service. --Ted

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Internet access: $38.00. Adult porn site membership: $29.95. Watching man jerk off from comfort of your own home: priceless. Masturbate the possibilities.

Morning Deb. Flop two, sinker and some suds.
-Two eggs, a doughnut and coffee for Mr. Wonderful. --Brian

Don't be pathetic. You made a commitment. Now you're going to go through with it.
-Yeah, a lot you know about making commitments.
Which is why I never do. -- B&M

You grab your pud and you pull!

You think you got everybody fooled, don't you? Well not me, honey. I've known you too long and regrettably too well. And no matter how hard you try to deny it. I can tell you care as much about him as he cares about you. Only you haven't got the big hairy cojones to say it. --Deb

We're queers. And if we're together. It's because we want to be, not because there's locks on our doors. So if I'm out late, just assume I'm doing exactly what I want to be doing: I'm fucking. And when I come home, I'll also be doing exactly what I want to do: coming home to you. --Brian

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Emmett's a star
-His dick's a star. He's just the life-support system. --B&M

As they say, out of adversity, comes knowledge. And I've learned to put my fears aside, and just find serenity in the chaos.
I think the secret is to stop regretting the past and fearing the future, and just live in the now.--Ben

If you've got one foot in tomorrow and one foot in yesterday, you'll piss on today.

He teaches you to focus on the smallest details. The breeze against your cheek, the way your shirt falls against your body, the feel of someone's hand on your back. Help you realize that right now, this moment is, it's all there is.--Ben

Well, that's what writers do, you know, we just cut ourselves open and bleed all over the page. --Ben

One of you could be positive. The reason you're not certainly isn't because you're always careful. I know goddamn well that isn't true. You're lucky. You're fucking lucky. So don't tell me you couldn't love somebody just because they're not as fortunate as you are. -- Deb打脸

Those who don't learn their lessons are condemned to repeat their courses.

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Youth should be savoured. -- Brian

Most of them are too busy chasing their hard-ons to listen to their heart. -- Deb

When we said good night, we also said goodbye. -- Emmett

Do you know how pathetic you are? One lousy fuck. Now you're carrying on like some lovesick fairy. You've got a lot to learn. Fags will say anything to get their dicks sucked or fuck a nice ass. Then it's on to the next. -- Justin

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What you need is something to keep your eyelids open.
You never know unless you try
Attaboy. Yeah.

Seems success is the ultimate aphrodisiac.

It's classic end-of-affair remorse. Made worse by the fact that you don't have anyone to replace him.

Whenever I come here, I feel a sense of calm, of inner peace. Knowing that I'm watched over, protected, safe.

I took viagra last night. It's been 18 hours and it won't go down. What am I gonna do?
-Have you tried soaking it?
-How about a cold shower?
-How about scaring it?
-What about something that would absolutely turn you off?
-That's a great idea. Why don't you two show him your tits?

God still loves you, no matter what.
-Yeah, like I give a shit what god thinks about me. He'd better be worried what I think about him. In all this cold, dead universe. We're the only ones that know he exists. Without us, he's nothing. -- Brian

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I still don't understand why you want to go to bed with an old guy like me, when there's all those beautiful young men out there.
-Well, for one thing, most of those beautiful young men are only interested in themselves. And for another, the sex is usually so fast and impersonal, you forget that you had it by the time you get home. -- Emmett

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Blaming the planets for your fuck-ups is just an excuse not to accept responsibility. -- Brian.

It wouldn't be right for you to stay. Brian Kinney sacrificing for others. Trapped in a hideous display of sentimentality. I'd lose all faith, all hope. What kind of gift is that?
I want you to fuck lots of beautiful guys. No apologies. No regrets. It's the best gift you could give me. Knowing you're happy. -- Lindsay

I think you're a selfish, heartless asshole. Keep up the good work. -- Brian

Btw: 这一集结尾的剪辑太棒了

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You know what's gonna happen? First we're gonna go back to your place. Then I'm gonna rip off your clothes. Then I'm gonna pin you to the mat like Wrestle Mania. That's just the exhibition match. For the main event, I'm gonna grab your legs and whip them over your head. And work my tongue down between your…
-My…what?
Well, I got us this far, now it's your turn.
-Okay my turn, I say let's get out of here and fuck. --Mikey&Ben

It's the first rule of gay etiquette: Never talk about your past fucks. Especially if one of your past fucks is your best friend's current fuck. -- Brian

When I find out that you and he… I just couldn't stop thinking…
-That…I knew him in a way you don't.
And he knows you in a way that I do.--Mikey&Ben

You had a life before I came along. So did I. Including people we've loved that we're still in love with. But that doesn't mean we can't love each other. -- Ben

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What kind of homosexual are you?
-The kind that fucks men. -- Brian

Fine, then, go ahead. But don't come crying to me when you succeed--Brian

This is it. Don't be nervous.
-If my heart rate was any lower, I'd be dead. --Brian

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Did I mention that I have an irrational but nevertheless quite intense fear of any physical activity that doesn't take place in bed? --Emmett

Is that "Not thanks, not tomorrow" or "No thanks, not ever"?

You're a hard act to follow.

Make mad passionate love at the top of your lungs.

You deserve a fabulous life, Em.
As fabulous as you.

Dug her high heels in and she's not budging.

The reason you don't have a boyfriend is because you don't want one. If you had one, it would challenge the well-established opinion you have of yourself, as a worthless sack of shit that nobody wants. Therefore, you go after guys you know will reject you, then you stand around here and bitch like a high school girl when in fact you've gotten exactly what you want, mainly…nothing.-- Brian

Value, principles, they're the first things to go when you want a cock

最后：whaaaaaaaaaaaaat……

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Knowing you guy's dysfunctional history, you'd put up with anything.
-Well, you'll be happy to know that even a glutton for punishment eventually gets his fill.

What we had for a few short months was more than most people have in a lifetime. -- Emmett

Rage…Hahahahahaha hilarious…

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He's managed to free himself from all the emotional baggage that the rest of us carry around.

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It's much better to give than to receive, except in bed. -- Emmett

The only thing that kept him going was his music.
No matter how shitty things get, I always have art. It's the one place I can go where I'll always be safe. --Justin

Can we please stay home, for one night? Just the two of us.
-You're too young to settle down.
-You're too old to fuck around.--Justin&Brian

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I'd ask you boys to stay but I know you need to toddle on back to your lackluster little lives. --Ted

It was just a spontaneous "I don't know how the hell it happened but there you are, doing it" sort of thing.--Lindsay

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The brain is the second sexiest organ. Which is not to say that the rest of you is not hot. --Emmett

   我从来都不是一个看电视剧有那么深感触的人，也许是因为最近一直抑郁的原因吧，表面准备好随时的微笑，而心在淌血，我知道这很矫情，可能是因为这种矫情，这样压抑的心情，所以才会特地注册一个账号来着写关于我对这部片子的感同身受，是的，我想我为B痛心，布莱恩是我第二个为之痛心的角色，第一个是白夜行里面的女主角，不明言说是痛，而有痛却不说，依然仰头放荡不羁的痛是痛到骨髓
   布莱恩和迈克的感情发生在14岁，可是这个感情不可能有延伸，是因为布莱恩没有安全感，是的，在那样的家庭里生活，他表面毫无在意，一副玩世不恭的样子来掩饰自己的害怕，是的，布莱恩胆小，懦弱，他不敢，他说他不相信爱情可是换作另一个词语来说是叫做害怕，他不知道一个人会爱另一个人多久？从小都得不到父爱的一个孩子，父亲对他与母亲从小的打骂，酗酒，从小在家庭中得不到任何温暖的人，谁会相信爱情？相信责任，相信世界有爱？布莱恩和迈克的爱情注定不会得到任何结局的，因为迈克的被动，他的自卑，他觉得布莱恩不会喜欢他的，布莱恩更不可能告诉迈克他爱他，布莱恩用一层有一层的保鲜膜包裹着自己，他不知道如果两个人在一起以后这种感情会维持多久，他宁愿他作为朋友一直一直一直呆在他身边，虽然，后来迈克恋爱，他嫉妒，他紧张一次次的想把迈克拉回来，是因为怕迈克受伤还是因为他爱迈克是因为友情？还是爱情？我觉得布莱恩自己也分不清楚，是的，他害怕孤独，害怕寂寞所以才会每日每夜的一夜情，来保持温度，
     直到他遇到贾斯汀，那个勇敢说爱的人，他爱他，从第一面开始，也许布莱恩在第一次见他的时候也爱上了他，不然他怎么会怎么可能在他连他的名字都记不清的一个人，在后来记得贾斯汀的紧张，他的害怕，而且在他们做爱的时候温柔而不是粗暴的对他，（后面剧中贾斯汀和他最好朋友做爱的时候贾斯汀说的）布莱恩在夜场寻开心的他，怎么可能那么细心的对待一个陌生人，如果不是他怎么会在画展上买走贾斯汀画他的那个裸体，在他朋友从后面抱着贾斯汀的时候拉开他们，然后将贾斯汀扯到自己身边他们相视而笑，我想是贾斯汀一次次的温暖他，他的不羁，他的烂脾气，他每次笑着在后面抱着他，我想无论是谁都会融化吧，嗑药后迷蒙的眼看着贾斯汀，让他为他的儿子取名，这就像一种伏笔，他与他的人生再也纠缠不清了，刚开始的时候他一直在推开他，他不想他成为自己的责任，但是却一次次的帮他，在他没有地方住的时候让他睡自己的沙发，在贾斯汀因为忘记挂上防盗灯，而暴怒的让贾斯汀滚，可是后来虽说是在众人的劝说下一同去找他回来，在朋友说要先去玩再去找他的时候毅然的让他们去玩而他去找贾斯汀，在什么时候布莱恩才意识到自己爱贾斯汀爱到无法自拔，我想是在贾斯汀在毕业晚会后被偷袭致昏迷运动神经受损的时候吧，我想在布莱恩决定去参加贾斯汀的舞会的时候，他就决定了要让他留在自己的身边，他们那么开心那么甜蜜，在布莱恩的依依不舍，从后视镜看着贾斯汀的微笑，那么温暖，眼睁睁的看着自己爱的人倒下，他那么苍凉的坐在医院，围着送给贾斯汀的白色围巾，一言不发，然后泪不觉的流下，他是谁？他是布莱恩啊，那个在父亲葬礼上依然可以保持风度的布莱恩啊，他那样脆弱 那么憔悴，有人说布莱恩是在帮贾斯丁恢复运动的时候，慢慢的才爱上贾斯丁的，我想说不是的，只是在照顾贾斯丁的这段时间里他爱上了和贾斯丁的那种平凡的就像夫妻的那种幸福生活，就在他不经意的听到别人说自己已经爱上那个小男孩的时候，他就立刻滥交，我想他是无法接受吧，每次他看他的时候的无法自拔，每次他的彷徨和害怕，为什么我说布莱恩害怕？因为在每次贾斯丁不经意的说的话，说我知道你们老人的口味，或者在泰德吃伟哥而导致一直坚挺，对布莱恩的一句玩笑话说或许应该让布莱恩吃点，我们现在性生活不是那么好了，晚上的时候布莱恩就卖力的要他一次又一次，我想说布莱恩太知道贾斯丁为什么爱上他，所以他不动声色，就像迈克说的那样，他用他自己的方式在爱他，不想让贾斯丁知道他爱他，也不想让贾斯汀知道他不想再放荡的生活，他只是想爱他 要他而已，可他太害怕如果他表达出来贾斯丁会再也不爱他，而他再也不是贾斯丁所仰望所爱的那个人，他太害怕自己老去，而贾斯丁则年轻旺盛，而又有另一个人爱他，他小心的让他去认识他的同龄人，他一方面想要贾斯丁有自己的生活，而另一方面却又害怕失去他，在贾斯丁在酒吧跳艳舞的时候，他喝酒，努力的想让自己的脸看起来平和，在贾斯汀被酒吧老板录取后，他高兴的在布莱恩面前跳着和面试时一样的舞蹈，布莱恩看着，眼里都快烧着了，和贾斯汀说话时，却不表现出来，只是在玩笑打他屁股的时候，却着着实实的表现出了他的怒气，而在他从酒吧辞职晚上，两人上床，而布莱恩却让贾斯丁上了他，我瞬间惊愕的后来在内心稍稍动了一下，布莱恩已经这么爱他了吗？每次贾斯丁说他老的时候，他就会马上去练身体，贾斯丁说我们不要玩了，他就放下别人，只看着他，贾斯丁说你可以和别人做爱，但是不要和别人接吻，他也做到了，就算是他们分手了，他找跟他长的很像的男妓的时候，他也没有和他接吻，在贾斯丁和迈克一起做着漫画，而顾忌不到布莱恩的时候，他嫉妒，在看到贾斯丁和迈克躺在一起睡觉的时候，他再也压抑不住，撕掉了他们摆在地板上所有的漫画，那么幼稚的对着漫画撒尿，后来他不想承认，却又不可承认的是他是嫉妒了，顿了两顿的说，是他的错，那么可爱的认错，站在那里，那样的布莱恩，贾斯丁怎么能认为他不爱你呢？他为你做了那么多的改变，在布莱恩和贾斯汀要一起去滑雪的时候却遇到工作危机，他只能去解决自己的工作，因为他知道他不能失去他的工作，他有家要养，有他的学费要供，可贾斯丁他不明白为什么，工作可以再找，他们第一次旅行怎么可以说不去就不去？最后布莱恩去为了工作努力，成功拿到合约成为公司合伙人的时候，他那么兴奋的想要和他分享，第一次他遇见朋友没有和他们臭屁的说：嘿，你们不知道我有多牛逼，我成为公司合伙人了，只因为贾斯汀不在那里，他想给贾斯丁买玫瑰，他一直站在那犹豫不觉，他知道贾斯丁想要，但是为什么不给他呢？他第一次为了贾斯丁，想要为他给他想要的浪漫，可是他却害怕了···········
    第三季开始的时候所有人都找不到他，他也不和任何人联系的时候，突然出现在黛比的餐馆，说着昏话，一切似乎都正常，可是在他每次不经意的撇着贾斯丁的时候，我想他是太想见到他才到餐厅的吧，再后来在mel他们8周年纪念的时候，本不想去的他，却拉着一对莫名其妙的在餐馆捡来的一对情侣，我想他只是需要一个借口而已，他只是想他了而已，在迈克一遍遍说他坏话的时候从来没打过他最好的朋友，他却狠狠的揍了他一拳，只为了他，后来迈克说：噢··我想你真的很爱他，他低头不语，抬头时却又痞气重生，这样的布莱恩，让人心酸，他在分手后他帮贾斯丁支付学费，贾斯丁来找他，我想编剧在这写的太好了，他坐在夕阳洒满客厅，目不转睛的看着电视剧里默默的念着里面的台词，具体的我忘记了，大概是说我和他在一起五年，我爱他，而贾斯丁问他为什么给他支付学费的时候他说DEAL IS DEAL，我那时就觉得他这辈子除了贾斯汀我想他谁都不会爱，在他让贾斯汀把电脑拿走的时候小心的想要撇见他开心的笑脸，却又害怕被发现的闪躲的眼神，那一刻我的心感觉也随着布莱恩的那一撇融化了，充满胸腔，不知道为什么从哪一集开始，我觉得他们俩之间的性，之间的接吻，之间的面对微笑，不再只是例行公事，而是一种爱满溢，
    我想编剧他是认真的赋予了布莱恩这个人一种真性情，一种真性格，而不是随着观众的导向而随随便便更改的，他就像真实的存在，
      我想说为什么贾斯汀可以让布莱恩爱上，并且为他改变，而迈克没有，因为剧中贾斯丁是那么了解布莱恩，他一次次的在布莱恩背后帮他解决问题，在布莱恩为了让迈克好好的和他交往的男人和好，而在迈克的生日宴会上告诉他的同事迈克是同性恋的时候所有人都痛斥着布莱恩的恶行，只有贾斯汀知道什么原因，这是看着他十几年黛比第二天才想清楚的原因，他帮他收拾聚会后的残局，帮他和迈克和好，一如既往的爱他，亲吻他，告诉他，庆幸吧，你赶不走我的，在布莱恩被告猥亵同事的时候，他救了他，却没有告诉他，但是我想布莱恩是知道的，因为在他们跳舞的时候，布莱恩的最后一句是说，喔，我想以后我要注意点不要和18岁以下的男人乱搞了，在他被外甥告猥亵男童的时候，也是他出现，他不经意的关注着他，他是那么爱他。（至此是我看到的地方）

Justin应该是剧里面最幸运的人了。在自己最美好的年纪遇见了B，他成熟，有着一双让人沦陷的眼睛，他花心，从来不跟同一个人约会，只谈性不说爱。他笑着对他说从此他有了两个儿子，他还说他要把他打造成最成功的同性恋。
刚刚看完第三季，多多少少已经可以预想到两人的结局。JT正在慢慢变得成熟，BB也已经向四十岁迈进。也许有一天他会将JT推开，不是因为不爱了，只是因为他觉得自己已经没有什么能给他了。他的英俊，他的成熟，他所有的爱。
每个人都会期盼自己身边有个BB，他会直截了当的告诉自己这种做法很幼稚，不应该这样，但是当有人欺负自己时他会第一时间挡在自己面前。
一直坚信不管将来发生了什么，BB会一直等着他的sunshine回来，爱情并不需要多海誓山盟，也不需要多壮烈，只要深爱过就会刻骨铭心。不管我走了多久，只要我回头的时候你还在，这就够了。

（去年参加wadsbb论坛剧情回顾活动乱涂了几笔，活动结束后顺便贴在这里）


第二季， 第14集

首播时间：2002年4月28号

剧情：
此集的剧情紧承上集发展， Justin不愿接受Brian的资助，宁可在Babylon做舞男赚取学费。开场便是几近全裸的Justin在吧台上舞动bubble butt，Brian在台下忍受众人奚落并极力为Justin辩白，满心苦涩溢于言表。次日清晨，Justin赖床跷课，Brian的忧心与不满开始显露。

这边厢一片阴云密布，那边厢， Emmett却欢欣鼓舞地做好了与George环游世界的准备。在一代艳星“Fetch Dixon”的告别party上，Justin疲态毕现，Brian提出借钱给Justin，再次被拒。Justin此刻剖析心迹，表明不愿接受Brian资助的原因：“You once told me that you want me to be the best homosexual it was possibly for me to be. Doesn't that include being a man（你曾经告诉过我想让我成为世界上最好的同性恋者，这不包括成为一个真正的男人吗）？”Brian的回答 “Sometimes a man has to learn to accept help（有时候一个男人必须学会去接受帮助）”引发Justin的思索。

Justin与Babylon老板Sap订下约定，以参加老板的私人party来换取周末休息恶补作业的机会。Brian得知后，半是吃醋半是忧心，无奈Justin主意已定。

就在这个晚上，命运的齿轮开始转动，将每个人带到了不同的方向。

Emmett和George坐在飞机一等舱里兴高采烈地展望美好新世界，不料乐极生悲，高空“大战”之际George心脏病发，猝然离世。抢救无效之后，Emmett木然坐在George身旁，陪伴爱人最后一程。此处Emmett的台词让人心酸：So, here we are, honey. Flying around somewhere between Heaven and Earth. Lost in the stars（我们现在在天空和大地间飞翔，迷失于星际之中）

Ded对Ben的态度依旧冷淡，Michael“投桃报李”，毫不掩饰对Deb和警官carl约会的不满。在与Deb发生激烈冲突之后，Michael来到Woody’s，在买醉的Ted和Brian处泄愤。回程的路上，Brian对Michael的吃醋心理进行分析，针针见血。Michael超速被拦，遂将对carl的不满发泄到执勤警官的身上，导致三人被捕。牢房里三人各抒己见，carl出现将三人释放，并与Michael小谈片刻。Michael认识到自己的问题，餐厅里向Deb道歉后母子重修旧好，同时Deb也首次向Ben释放善意。

不出Brian所料，Sap的party里充斥着毒品和性爱。Justin被迫吸食白粉，神志渐失。Sap趁势揩油，伙同其狐朋狗友意图迷奸Justin，关键时刻Justin奋力反抗，抬脚踹飞Sap，得以脱身，却也因此被炒。

大牢历险后的Brian回到家中，Justin守候已久，对Brian的晚归表示不满，Brian直言安抚后询问party状况，Justin隐去详情，放下自尊，向Brian寻求金援……


心得：
其实很怕写这种观影心得，大概太明白自己对Brian的偏爱，生怕会以罗生门的方式叙述，隐去Brian的所有过失。所幸挑中的是这一集，观点不会太过偏颇。事实上，这是全剧为数不多的几次让我能够对Justin击节赞叹，尤其是在他说“I’m trying to look after myself for once, instead of always letting you do it for me（我只是尝试着照顾自己一次，而不是每次都让你为我做）”的时候。毕竟你不能要求别人在养你的同时还尊重你，这既是成长的宣言，也是独立的尝试，也体现了在一段恋爱中要求平等关系的不断努力。然后自立的同时并不愚蠢，受挫之后，一个男人应该懂得在什么时候寻求帮助。

同时，本集的辅线也放在Michael和Deb的母子关系上。我从未喜欢过Michael，never have , never will。第一季中Deb说Michael有一颗Big heart，是我觉得本剧最大的讽刺之一，每每想到便付之冷笑。有一颗Big heart的人不会当面讽刺自己的母亲见到男人示好便贴上去，有一颗Big heart的人不会对自己最好的朋友说“他当然会离开你，谁不会”。昨日种种昨日死，我对Michael的厌恶却绝对延绵不绝。

本集最大的亮点，也最为让观者津津乐道的，莫过于最后BJ性爱情节的攻防转换了。鄙人第一次看到这个情节之时，目瞪口呆，惊到下巴险些没合上。然后就开始拼命吐槽导演和制片的疏忽懈怠，Brian第一次做bottom的戏，就算不搞得惊天动地，至少也象征性地让Justin拿一罐lube吧，这样直接就上，你插得进去吗？真的插得进去吗？不专业啊不专业，碎碎念一百遍。
体味再三之后，不得不说这场戏的意味深长。Justin的这一举动，与其说是生理上的需求，不如说是心理上的发泄。这个晚上受到的一切屈辱，一切惊慌，一切亟待修补的自尊，都通过情人的身体得到舒缓。Top也是一种控制力的体现，从今而后，两人关系里dominant的那一方，怕也发生了转变。Brian也彻底沦陷在Justin的手掌心里不得翻身了。

好吧，通往gay男心灵的道路经过直肠。